Why do we want to feel God in a tangible way? So we feel assured. Assured that He is real. That He cares. That there really is a Heaven. Just because we don’t feel Him doesn’t mean He isn’t there or isn’t working behind the scenes. But it makes it so much sweeter if we do.
I have had nights lately where I am screaming “God! Answer me! Tell me that everything will be okay. Tell me how this will work out. And when. How long do I have to struggle with this? Or worry about this?”
Then I start questioning myself. Am I in some kind of sin? Am I not doing x, x, x, or x enough? Maybe He is silent because He expects us to take authority and bring it to pass by our faith alone. Geesh. That makes me feel like an orphan. Like Big Sky Daddy isn’t in control or isn’t moving the puzzle pieces. Is He even real?
Wow…..overthinking this aren’t I?
Today, I cried as I started begging Him to fix a couple of things. Then I apologized for begging. That’s not what a daughter of the most High God does. Begging or apologizing. But I still held my breath and waited for an answer.
Then I unexpectedly felt this deep comfort. Like the negative feelings simply went away. I didn’t feel extreme peace or hear Angels singing. I just no longer felt negative. I felt like I could go on with my day.
Sometimes God’s presence is simply comfort. No words were necessary. When it came down to it, I really didn’t need to hear Him, I needed to feel Him take the extreme emotions away.
Comfort is to soothe in times of affliction or distress. Comfort is also a condition of wellbeing, contentment and security.