You’ll Never Catch Me Coppers!

I looked up from my computer to see a County Sherrif’s vehicle pull up and park outside my place. I suddenly froze, held my breath and thought ” Yikes! What did I do now?” Then, I exhaled and laughed! What could I possibly have done or DO that would warrant…..well a warrant? Hahahaha!

Isn’t it funny that even though my crazy redhead days are over with, that I am so quick to condemn myself? Before anyone else does? Or before there is any proof of wrong doing? I think we all tend to do that. Or am I the only one who has some “situations” in my past? You know….the ones you are glad happened before Facebook and Instagram were invented?.

Peeps, not only do we need to get over ourselves, we need to get PAST our past.

I am getting too old for this crap. How about you?

Fake Peace

Do you ever feel like you have fake peace? Like you are forcing peace?

I’m at peace. Really!

I’m at peace, dammit!

I’ll just keep spewing bible verses and telling myself I am fine.

At least if I don’t really believe it, I will look good to the people around me. Can’t let anyone know I am struggling.

That feels more like resignation than peace.

Godly peace sometimes feels warm and gooey. Or light and airy. Or you just know that you know that you know….even if everything around you says you don’t. And at times, it is as simple as the quick release of emotional pain or fear.

Fake peace feels like a “go with the flow” snow job.

How do you shovel yourself out? Or, as my Iowan friends say, “scoop” yourself out?

Relationship with the Father. When He feels real to you, the peace becomes real AND easy!

Repeat after me: Father, show me that you are real! Show me how you have been working in my life lately that I may have minimized or overlooked.

Show me the details. Remind me of the smallest details that wouldn’t impress anyone, but I will know it was you.

Thoughts-Beliefs-Actions

Are you tired of being stuck? You might just be the captain of your own dysfunctional Carnival Cruise!

We store thoughts or information in our minds and store beliefs in our hearts. Thoughts = beliefs = action. How do some of your thoughts become beliefs? By attaching emotions to it. The more times you attach emotions to a thought the stronger that belief gets. That is why it doesn’t take more than a heartbeat to get your blood boiling when you repeatedly think about that person that hurt you. It is more than a memory and it has now become a belief that has a very quick trigger. That is also why it is really important to break that circuit by sharing good stories or testimonies.

Why? Because we have been taught about life from stories since we were small children. Some good. Some bad. Unfortunately, we continue to tell ourselves stories that are lies, no longer true or keeping us stuck. When we share testimonies or hear testimonies of God’s goodness, healing, provision, etc. it stirs up emotions in us. We feel the reality of God! We feel what He can do and will do. It speaks the miracle or action prophetically into our own lives. When enough of those stories get imprinted into our hearts, it becomes a belief. These beliefs give us hope and propel us forward. When we are hopeless we remain stuck. The more it is imprinted, the stronger the belief gets. Good or bad. That is why it is easier to believe God in some areas and not in others. We just haven’t attached enough good or Godly emotions or proof to the areas we struggle in.

Purpose this week to share testimonies of God’s goodness in your life. Not only will it help someone else, but it will remind you of Him. I am tired of being stuck by some of the negative stories I continue to tell myself. It is time to put some emotions to the good stuff, so we can call more of it into our lives. God told me to make the month of March a march forward month. How about you?

Share your testimonies this week and let me know how you not only change the atmosphere around you…..but how it changes the beliefs in your heart!

March on, beloveds!

Holy Grounds

It’s been a rough couple of days still waiting for a call back on my CT scan. Fighting fear. Up late and sleeping late. I drove to a Starbucks to get a Trenta Cold Brew. Love or hate Starbucks, their Cold Brew makes me extremely happy.

As I went through the very long drive-thru, I called my friend Jim to talk about being fearful and how I was tired of medical issues. That lately, regardless of speaking to my mountain, I can’t seem to hear God nor hold on to peace for very long. That this is all triggering trauma for me. Not only from memories of Dan’s health fight but also my own recent “adventures.”

I told Jim I was surprised I even had any fear. Looking back, God has been faithful and had my back even when I didn’t deserve it. Shouldn’t I be trusting and at peace 24/7? Terrible feeling like a hypocrite when you minister to others about God’s goodness.

As I rambled on about trust, no trust, and how I shouldn’t be spending retirement money on coffee, I suddenly became annoyed at the car in front of me. It was apparent they had forgotten they were in a “moving” line, and in my head, I was yelling, “Pull up! Pull up!”

I continued to complain to Jim as I watched this vehicle finally reach the takeout window. I saw the “bucker,” as I call their employees, start to hand them out my Cold Brew but then pull it back. “WTH? Don’t be handing out my drink to those slowpoke strangers!”

Now I am really annoyed. When I finally reached the window, the bucker said, “The car in front of you bought your drink.” WHAT? I’m still talking to Jim and can’t hear her. “They paid for your drink!” I tell Jim, and he laughs, “God’s trying to tell you everything will be okay .”I smiled. He’s got this! God knows His girl loves Starbucks and Tulips. Free Starbucks! Maybe when I get home, my Tulips will have opened. It had been over a week, and they were still hiding.

Later that night, I looked over at my tulips, and they had literally bloomed while I was out that day. Then the memory of the free drink hit me like a sack of Holy Spirit bricks. I broke down and just started sobbing because I could feel His heart for me. I couldn’t settle down to actually hear Him say “no worries,” so He had to find another way to get my attention.

Then today, He prompted me to turn to K-LOVE radio in my car instead of making calls like I usually do. I can’t even tell you the last time I listened to any music in my vehicle. God spoke directly to me thru every song. He sang sweet reminders to me of trust, provision, and His goodness. A perfect playlist He had created just for me.

Has He ever communicated to you in a fashion you didn’t expect? When you just couldn’t hear Him in a way you are familiar with? Comfortable with? Even when we aren’t seeking Him, He tries to get our attention. His words may just be delivered in a way you’d never expect.

I don’t have all the answers, but He does, and I feel at peace.

Tangible God

Why do we want to feel God in a tangible way? So we feel assured. Assured that He is real. That He cares. That there really is a Heaven. Just because we don’t feel Him doesn’t mean He isn’t there or isn’t working behind the scenes. But it makes it so much sweeter if we do.

I have had nights lately where I am screaming “God! Answer me! Tell me that everything will be okay. Tell me how this will work out. And when. How long do I have to struggle with this? Or worry about this?”

Crickets

Then I start questioning myself. Am I in some kind of sin? Am I not doing x, x, x, or x enough? Maybe He is silent because He expects us to take authority and bring it to pass by our faith alone. Geesh. That makes me feel like an orphan. Like Big Sky Daddy isn’t in control or isn’t moving the puzzle pieces. Is He even real?

Wow…..overthinking this aren’t I?

Today, I cried as I started begging Him to fix a couple of things. Then I apologized for begging. That’s not what a daughter of the most High God does. Begging or apologizing. But I still held my breath and waited for an answer.

Crickets

Then I unexpectedly felt this deep comfort. Like the negative feelings simply went away. I didn’t feel extreme peace or hear Angels singing. I just no longer felt negative. I felt like I could go on with my day.

Sometimes God’s presence is simply comfort. No words were necessary. When it came down to it, I really didn’t need to hear Him, I needed to feel Him take the extreme emotions away.

Comfort:

Comfort is to soothe in times of affliction or distress. Comfort is also a condition of wellbeing, contentment and security. ​

Good Word

Rob Grove

Food for Thought – February 12, 2022.
Good Morning Beautiful People: Start out your Saturday by not being pushed around by the fears in your mind. Be led by the dreams in your heart and pursue them with great vigor. Don’t be afraid of your fears. They’re not there to scare you. They’re there to let you know that something is worth it, worth the effort, worth the time and worth the fortitude.

Let us not forget that if we want to forget something or someone, never hate it, or never hate him/her. Everything and everyone that you hate is engraved upon your heart; if you want to let go of something, if you want to forget, you cannot hate. Every day, we have to allow ourselves to be loved by the people who really love us, the people who really matter.

Too much of the time, we are blinded by our own pursuits of people to love us, people that don’t even matter, while all that time we waste and the people who do love us have to stand on the sidewalk and watch us beg in the streets! It’s time to put an end to this and start loving those that show you’re a priority and not just an option.

It’s time to give love to those who give love to us through their actions. It’s time for us to let ourselves be loved. Take responsibility going forward for your own happiness, never put it in other people’s hands. Accept yourself, love yourself, and keep moving forward.

Lastly always remember this simple saying “If you want to fly, you have to give up what weighs you down.”💜💜💜

Don’t Deliver Me

Can we just stop pressuring people to move forward quickly after a loss? We may not even realize we’re doing it and think we are helping. 

Evil spirit of grief? Someone said that to me awhile back and I thought you’re kidding me aren’t you? You want to deliver me of sadness? It’s your choice if you want to see a devil under every rock, but you aren’t going to push me so you can feel better.

If you have a hard time seeing someone’s grief pain because it makes you uncomfortable maybe you need to be the one to just move on.

I’ve cried a lot the past couple of days. Just when I felt it was getting easier, a wave of tears just hit me out of the blue. I really miss Dan. Miss him terribly.

I really need some peace right now. But maybe the only way to find peace is to cry right through the pain. To release the pain instead of hiding it away.

February will be a tough anniversary month for me and those who loved Dan. We committed to each other on 2/3, He died on 2/20 and the funeral was 2/27. I’d like to sleep thru February this year but life goes on. But so does the grief until I move through it.

Let people be with their grief process. You can’t do it for them nor speed it up. If you can’t handle it the kindest thing you can do is just get out of the way.

Thanks for your prayers, Beloveds.

No Weapons

“Isaiah 54:17” No weapon formed against you will prosper. 

God’s word says that no weapon formed against you will prosper. 

He did not say that there would not be any weapons created. He said it….or they…… would not win, flourish or triumph). Read it again. 

I used to know someone who constantly said, “Give thanks to the Lord in good times and in bad. Especially in the bad times.”

I actually had a hard time with that. Why would I be thanking God when things were going wrong? Wouldn’t that mean that God brought it on for some reason? For some higher good? Thank you Sir, may I have another?! 

I’m Big Sky Daddy’s kid! Why couldn’t things always just go right? 

We can easily forget that we have the authority to take hold of the crap storm before it starts. Often, we get a little whisper that tells us before the clouds even begin to form. Nah! I’m just being paranoid. That couldn’t possibly happen. Nope. Maybe it’s your spirit giving you a heads up about that weapon starting to be assembled. You can learn to be calm in the eye of the storm, but don’t you have better things to do? Like, spend those Kohl’s dollars? 

Years ago, I recalled getting this feeling that I was secretly being listened to at work. At first, it felt like paranoia, but I knew it was true in my heart. One of my managers started repeating to me, verbatim, things my coworkers or I had said in conversations in my office. How did he know what was said? Or what I did last weekend? Then I started to have dreams about hidden mics and searched everything in my office numerous times and found nothing. Then one day, as I was walking by an empty office next to mine, the Holy Spirit said “it’s in there, behind the picture that hangs on the wall that is directly behind you.” I walked in and lifted the frame, and there was a wireless lavaliere mic attached to the wire that it hung on. I was shocked, to say the least. Someone walked past and asked me what I was doing, and I returned to my office. 15 minutes later, after most had gone to lunch, I went back into the empty office, and the mic had been removed. Hmmm. How many people were in on it?

Pay attention to what you are feeling in your heart. Maybe it’s true. Perhaps you aren’t crazy or had too much coffee. Maybe you can stop or get ahead of the storm before it builds up pressure. Or play those clouds to your advantage. But no worries if you totally miss it. God can still bring out the sun and create rainbows regardless of whether you get caught in the downpour.

Isaiah 54:17 Amplified 

“No weapon that is formed against you will succeed;

And every tongue that rises against you in judgment you will condemn.

This [peace, righteousness, security, and triumph over opposition] is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,

And this is their vindication from Me,” says the Lord.