God Sees You As He Created You

I recently went for an upcoming eye surgery exam. The tech doing the measurements seemed a little rattled at first. Like I was making him nervous. I don’t know if it was my red hair, my RBF that even a mask fails to hide or that my medical profile states that I suffer from anxiety. It was like he was walking on eggshells! Ha! I was actually as calm as I could possibly be fueled up on no lead coffee.

God started giving me a word and I thought “oh brother, this will definitely escalate the situation. But there were other people in the room with us and I knew I was off the hook because “Ope! Can’t give a personal word in public…” and just like that God had the the other people leave. Ha! I hear God laugh as I type this. “It’s always simple, Jeanne.” So I quickly began to give the guy a word before anyone else could walk in and of course no one does.

The young man, “Dave”, even though surprised, smiled and stopped what he was doing to listen. You could see a light bulb had gone off as he continued to nod his head to what I was saying. God loves His children and wants them to know that He has created them with gifts and talents to share with the world. He also wants them to know that He sees their goodness and loves them RIGHT where they are at. Dave thanked me and you could clearly see that God had touched his heart.

As I got up to leave I heard “Tell Dave he reminds you of Matthew Broderick”. “Oh wow. Yes, it’s been a long time, but I have heard that before.” By the way his mouth dropped open I could tell there was way much more to that story.

I thanked him for being awesome and then Dave left me to wait for the doctor. You know I have never had anyone react badly to a word or tell me they didn’t want to hear one. Except for a terrified server who told us she was a Jehovah Witness and never returned to our table with the bill.

We all want to know that God is alive and well and not just sitting around waiting for us upstairs. Please don’t hesitate to share if you feel something good bubbling up inside of you.

We all hear from God. All of us. God will open the door and make the delivery easy, natural and simple.

No Weapons

“Isaiah 54:17” No weapon formed against you will prosper. 

God’s word says that no weapon formed against you will prosper. 

He did not say that there would not be any weapons created. He said it….or they…… would not win, flourish or triumph). Read it again. 

I used to know someone who constantly said, “Give thanks to the Lord in good times and in bad. Especially in the bad times.”

I actually had a hard time with that. Why would I be thanking God when things were going wrong? Wouldn’t that mean that God brought it on for some reason? For some higher good? Thank you Sir, may I have another?! 

I’m Big Sky Daddy’s kid! Why couldn’t things always just go right? 

We can easily forget that we have the authority to take hold of the crap storm before it starts. Often, we get a little whisper that tells us before the clouds even begin to form. Nah! I’m just being paranoid. That couldn’t possibly happen. Nope. Maybe it’s your spirit giving you a heads up about that weapon starting to be assembled. You can learn to be calm in the eye of the storm, but don’t you have better things to do? Like, spend those Kohl’s dollars? 

Years ago, I recalled getting this feeling that I was secretly being listened to at work. At first, it felt like paranoia, but I knew it was true in my heart. One of my managers started repeating to me, verbatim, things my coworkers or I had said in conversations in my office. How did he know what was said? Or what I did last weekend? Then I started to have dreams about hidden mics and searched everything in my office numerous times and found nothing. Then one day, as I was walking by an empty office next to mine, the Holy Spirit said “it’s in there, behind the picture that hangs on the wall that is directly behind you.” I walked in and lifted the frame, and there was a wireless lavaliere mic attached to the wire that it hung on. I was shocked, to say the least. Someone walked past and asked me what I was doing, and I returned to my office. 15 minutes later, after most had gone to lunch, I went back into the empty office, and the mic had been removed. Hmmm. How many people were in on it?

Pay attention to what you are feeling in your heart. Maybe it’s true. Perhaps you aren’t crazy or had too much coffee. Maybe you can stop or get ahead of the storm before it builds up pressure. Or play those clouds to your advantage. But no worries if you totally miss it. God can still bring out the sun and create rainbows regardless of whether you get caught in the downpour.

Isaiah 54:17 Amplified 

“No weapon that is formed against you will succeed;

And every tongue that rises against you in judgment you will condemn.

This [peace, righteousness, security, and triumph over opposition] is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,

And this is their vindication from Me,” says the Lord.

New Beginnings

Warning: End of the year ramble.

I was with a group of people last night and we hovered over a table filled with a variety of the usual end-of-the-year snacks. You know…. the ones that will never cross your lips again until you lose X amount of pounds. A couple of people kept saying “I can’t believe I keep eating this!” “This is sooooo bad for me!” “I’ve gained enough weight already!”. Oh yeah, and I might have been one of them. Finally, I said “Can we just not feel guilty for once about eating and just enjoy it? Just once?” Nothing goes better with spinach dip, chips, and poppers like a big ole side of GUILT. Maybe if we spank ourselves while shoveling it in, (as in don’t really taste or enjoy) maybe it doesn’t count. Like you have already done your penance so it can’t permanently land on your already big ……….. fill in the blank. 🙂 No? Just me? Ha! And why don’t men have this food guilt/shame gene? Or is this just a learned behavior our mamas didn’t teach us?

2022 will be better. I am believing it will. Trusting it will. It’s time to start living life again. Feeling hope, joy, and learning to enjoy the small things. Even if it is melted cheese stuffed into a jalapeno! I am really grateful for family, friends, and my relationship with Big Sky Daddy.

I am thankful that I am alive and still able to be used by God on this side of the realm. Instead of feeling bad about things that don’t really matter, in the long run, I am choosing to feel hopeful, excited, and expectant of new beginnings and possibilities.

This needs to trump everything.

Let’s stop sweating the small stuff. And it’s all small stuff.

Happy New Beginnings my Beloveds!

Special Love

2019: He walked into the room and I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him. An energy and light emitted from him like a beautiful sunrise and I could feel a Godly presence. It was one of those moments when you knew your senses were in both realms and I was in awe. For months, I had heard all about him but this was the first time we had met. Destin, an RN from Hospice, calmly attended to my father as he spoke to him like an old friend. “Can he hear you?” ” Sure can. He’s tough and isn’t ready to go yet. What a character. I bet he was a fun dad.” I broke down and Destin stopped what he was doing.

“We haven’t always gotten along and its nice to have this quiet time with him.” I filled Destin and his partner in on what we and the staff had observed. I also told him that I had asked the staff that if they were Christian, would they please pray over him when they were in the room. The staff was very happy that I had given them permission as they had grown very attached to my father. Destin seemed surprised by this as I am sure that prayer isn’t a common request.

That opened the door to a discussion on the spiritual realm and how we could make this an easier transition for my father to launch, as I call it. It was so comforting to talk in a perspective I believed in and Destin’s light only shined brighter. God whispered I have a word for Destin and before I could argue with myself if this was appropriate “Do you know what a word of knowledge or prophecy is?” He looked surprised. “Why, yes I do.”

” God is showing me that you already have this in you. That you will help others transition peacefully as they will see how much God loves them and is known by Him. You will help families heal and restore their relationships by the words God will give you to say.” I went on to tell him other things that God was showing me about him and his future and Destin teared up. Yes Destin, you are loved and known by God too.

God is speaking all the time. To you and to others through you. Not of His judgement and condemnation, but of His love and mercy for His children. All of His children. Regardless if they believe yet or not. I decided today that I never want to miss an opportunity to be used by God so that people know His heart for them.

My father’s pending demise has been really bittersweet. I will miss him terribly but know that this is also a very special time for God’s love to shine.

Merry and Blessed Christmas my beloved peeps. May you all know God’s special love for you this week.

How My Daddy Rolls

This morning, as I drove around doing errands, God flashed an image of a young man who works at a grocery store by my old place. God whispered “He is a nice young man. He has a genuinely good heart.” When I arrived home I realized I had forgotten to pick up some drain cleaner. I got back into my car to buy some from a local hardware store about a mile from my house. God said ” No. Go to the grocery store by your old place. Give that young man $10, tell him to buy lunch, and then tell him how I see him. How I see his heart.”

I wasn’t too thrilled, to tell you the truth. The store was 15 minutes away! My hair was dirty, no make-up on and I knew the store would be super busy right before Christmas. I drove to my old hood and when I walked in I didn’t see him cashiering. Oh well. I guess I missed it. Must have been my own head and that cash burning in my pocket talking to me! I turned down the aisle to get the cleaner and there he was. Standing right in front of the cleaner, unpacking stock with another employee. I don’t know why I was amazed that he was right where I needed to be and that the aisle was totally empty, even though the store was packed. God always knows how to set it up so you just walk right into it.

“I don’t want you to think I am weird, but God told me this morning to give you $10. Buy yourself lunch today.” His face lit up and he suddenly looked upward. I could tell a lightbulb went off. It was about noon and maybe it was time for his break. Or maybe he didn’t have any money. Didn’t matter, That was just an icebreaker because, of course, God didn’t stop there. God told him how He saw him. That he was a truly nice person with a big genuine heart for others. That when he had children he would be a good father. That he would be patient and encouraging and that his love for his children would help them become people effective in this world. He would be too and his children would pass this on. Whoa! Sometimes God is a chatty Daddy! His face was lit up the entire time God was speaking to him. His coworker stood silently nearby just taking it all it in. We were not interrupted by anyone and the aisle remained empty.

“Thank you so much! I really really appreciate it. This means a lot to me. God bless you.” “Yes, I know it does. God just wanted you to know that He loves you, sees you, and thinks you are amazing.”What a super blessing it is to be used by God. That encounter made my day! I am continually humbled by how much He loves people through us if we let him. I am sure this young man will have an interesting story to tell his family tonight about a God who paid for his lunch and saw the best in him. Without any strings! Without any come to Jesus meeting!I guess I need to stop being surprised by these encounters. That is just how my Daddy God rolls……Merry Christmas Beloveds!



Encourage And Edify

Several years ago, I drove through my favorite place to get coffee. The young woman at the window greeted me “Hello, what do you think of my new shirt?” She kind of half twirled around so I could see it and then pointed to the company logo that was just beneath her left shoulder. ” Nice!” I guess I really didn’t know what to say, as to me, it was just another long sleeved t-shirt. She gave me a big smile ” Its a shift lead shirt! I am now a shift lead!” Oh! No wonder she was excited! She is someone who mans the window regularly and I had given her a word a month earlier that God saw her in management. That she led by a good example. She was mature, calm under pressure and would make a great leader. I smiled. “That’s great!

I paid for my coffee and then handed her a $20 bill and said Merry Christmas. “Oh I can’t take that!” “You can’t?” “Well I could, but I can’t. You don’t need to do that” “Please take it, I have an appointment over here and on my drive over God told me you would be working and to drive through and give you $20. He must want you to have it for some reason.” She thanked me and I drove off.

I thought I hope she doesn’t think I am strange. Or creepy! Stranger danger! Stranger danger! Ha! Then I thought who cares! I can be odd…..odd in the Lord! Ha! I just do what He tells me to do.

You may not remember when God gives you a WOK or prophecy for someone, but they will. Like Godfrey Birtill ‘s song “Just one touch from the King, changes everything!” It does!

This woman was later promoted to manager and eventually left for a better job at a larger establishment. Never under estimate what God can do through you if you let Him. That is why it is important to edify and encourage and not just read somebody’s mail. It might just change someone’s future.

Thanks Daddy God! That really blessed me. Who ever said life as a Christian was boring, must have never really had one.

God’s Best

“Hey, do you want this two lb. hand weight too? Sorry, but I only have one. Otherwise, we’ll toss it.” My sister Jackie casually asked me this weekend; as I was walking out her door with some leftover salad.

Yeehaw! “Yes! And I only need one.” My PT had told me to get one after surgery, and months later I had still failed to remember to buy one. Interestingly, I had just thought about getting one on Friday but didn’t want to dodge the holiday shoppers at Target. In my heart, I heard Big Sky Daddy laugh. Like …I got you, girl!

I cannot tell you how many items or solutions I have needed or wanted in the past month that I told NO ONE about that materialized. NO ONE.

Deuteronomy 28:2, ESV And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you if you obey the voice of the LORD your God.

Peeps! I speak God’s blessings to chase you down and surround you! Overwhelm you! Wherever you are. Day or night. Never late and always on time. Or before you even need them.

I used to believe I had a God who showed up at the last minute because He was trying to teach me to have faith. Nope!

All it did was make me anxious and panicky because I constantly expected God would only show up at the last minute.. and not one second before.

Kind of like ….why are my lost keys always found in the LAST place I’d ever look for them? Ha!

Read it again.

I get what I expect. I expect God’s best for me because He is My Father, He loves me and chose me before the beginning of time.

Read it again.

God’s best blessings, Beloveds.

And The Beat Goes On

I have 3 days left of radiation. It has been 3 long weeks of daily emotional roller coaster rides.

Some laughs. Some tears. And a whole lot of anxiety. But I continued through the fear. I told myself every day I put on my big girl pants I could get Starbucks. A really BIG Starbucks.

The staff is wonderful and my hot doctor is sweet, funny and very smart.

One day I said to him “ apparently you’re not just another pretty face”. He laughed and then I gave him a word that God had given me a week earlier. Hot Doc’s mouth dropped open. I’m telling ya Big Sky Daddy really knows how to Mic drop.

I gave 2 techs a word too. Did I want to? No. I didn’t even want to be there in the first place. But God had other plans.

Good reminder that God continues to speak through the hurricane. He isn’t thrown off by the howling wind and rain. He’s says “keep your eyes on Me! Come into the eye of the storm with Me!”

Then He waits for you to do it.

No shame or condemnation because you did not have faith and trust from the start.

He simply waits for you to join Him.

God is good and even though this year has been a crap storm, I still believe in Him.

Have a lovely week, Beloveds.

Redheads

“Are you mean? I heard Redheads are mean!”

WTH? Great conversation starter.

She continued, “Or are you nice?” I replied” I’m nice…..until I’m not” and then gave her a wink.

I had just sat down with a group of people who included some new faces. This woman, who came from a country of mostly dark-haired and dark-eyed residents continued to stare me down. She was the size of a kindergartner so I figured I could take her if she made any fast moves 🙂

The group began to chat about an upcoming event we were all involved in but when the conversation lulled she piped up again “So are you mean?”

I relayed the story to a friend “Seriously, do you believe that? Guess that would be redhead stereotyping”. She laughed “Well it probably doesn’t help that you and I have RBF. (resting bitch face) You also have a way of looking right through someone. I can’t tell if God’s giving you a word or if you are reading someone’s mail. It’s a little intimidating”

I sighed ” I am probably in my own little world. Just stressing out trying to remember if I locked my back door.”

Years ago, I received an email from Fr. Neal who had moved to Costa Rica. “You’ll never guess what they call redheads down here! They call them Al Qaeda!”

Oh my, everyone’s a comedian 🙂

It’s ok if you are afraid of redheads. I am seriously afraid of clowns. Oh wait….don’t most clowns have red hair?

Damn! Maybe I’m afraid of redheads too.

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Wasted

2:55 pm and I am 5 minutes early for my teeth cleaning. I grabbed a magazine and waited for my name to be called. A couple of minutes later, a woman came in with 2 small children and checked in. She stated she was really early. “No problem, we will take you in now.” I am busy answering emails and checking Facebook and realized 25 minutes later than I haven’t been called.

“Are they running late today?” “No. On time.” “My appointment was at 3 and it is almost 3:30.” The receptionist looked at her computer “Oh, a woman came in early with her 2 kids for a family cleaning so I just put them into your slot.” “What? She had the appointment after me, but you put her before me because she came in early?” “Yes, did you need to be some where?” ” WTH? “That doesn’t even make sense. I came in before she did.” “Well, sorry. I thought it would just be easier.” Easier for who? Because she had kids? Because you didn’t want to listen to her kids for 45 minutes? What? I took a deep breath and sat down before I went redhead on her.

I complained to the hygienist, to my dentist and anyone else who would listen to me that day. Heck! That week! That was over 10 years ago and it popped up, again, last night, and annoyed me all over again! Minor inconvenience, major annoyance. Ever have any of those? In the big scheme of things, doesn’t mean much. But then it does. Otherwise it wouldn’t keep percolating in your memory bank just to pop up at the strangest of moments. Do you have any memories like this? What is it all about really? Certainly not about a half hour that you can’t ever get back. We all have plenty of those. Dysfunctional family feasts. Listening to a coworker drone on about their weekend. Waiting in line at Target. Stalking old loves or enemies on Facebook. Wasted time you will never get back.

What is it really about? About not being honored? Or valued? Respected? Or being invisible to the world? That in the big scheme of things we don’t really matter? Unfortunately, that is how I felt and how stupid is that!!!

Next time a minor inconvenience causes a major annoyance ask some other quedtions. What do you need? From others? From yourself? From God? If you can’t blow it off, ask what you need to fix this in your heart. Before it gets to autoplay. It might save you from wasting another half hour getting angry or hurt about something or someone that doesn’t really matter any more. Stop wasting time you can never get back. Or at least use it for some wasted fun. Like binge watching Ugly Betty again or FB stalking those people you love to hate. JK!

Just ask God to fix that hole in your heart. Ask Him to show you what the hole is and then remove it from your memory bank. Negative pop ups are just wasted time and energy.