God’s Timing

When looking for a partner, I have read that you attract what you are rather than what you want. This means you will attract someone at an equal level of your current self-worth or your woundedness. It probably explains why a lot of relationships don’t work out. One person heals and then leaves the unhealed behind because they are no longer a fit.

But what if you could attract who you want or need, even if you are less than your best self? Hmmmmm

Years ago, I met a couple who had recently married. I asked how they had met, and they told me they had been friends for many years. One day they attended church together and, during communion, looked over at each other and realized that they were meant to be together and married two months later. Whoa! I know another couple who worked for the same restaurant chain but in different locations. They had met but hated each other. One day they collided at a work event, and both suddenly knew they were to be married and now have a houseful of kids. Hate to marriage vows? It sounds like the plot for every Hallmark movie I’ve ever seen!

Maybe God intervenes when it is His plan, and it doesn’t matter how much healing you need. It overrides anything in the natural.

Ten-plus years ago, it was common practice at conferences to tell all the sad, lonely singles to pray, write a list of traits you wanted in a mate, and tuck it away in a bible. You were calling those perfect mates into existence! Like a holy version of manifestation 🙂. You weren’t supposed to ask for a hot blonde or tall dark and …. but rather Godly traits. Ha!

So tonight, as I cleaned out some old books in my office, I found my Godly spouse wish list. It must have been at least 15 years old! I was surprised when I read through the 26 traits that every single one was my Dan! Every single one. Even down to the “much taller than me, brown hair and brown eyes.”

God wants to give you EVEN better than the desires of your heart. Maybe your timing isn’t right…..BUT HIS IS!

Just ask Beloved. Just ask.

Godly Show Off

For me, some January’s are worse then others. Its like a body memory. I feel this void. An unexplainable weirdness. Like something just ain’t right. Then it hits me. Mom! In 1991, our family spent most of that super cold month visiting my mother in hospice, until she launched on January 28th. Even though I have plenty of spiritual mothers, the death of your MOM leaves a hole that can’t quite be filled by anyone.

I wasn’t a Christian back then and I recall pleading with my mother, “Go with the people to the light! Do you understand me? Go with the people to the light!” The people? What people? What light? I wasn’t quite sure. I just knew that as a good little New Ager that was the most enlightened thing you could say to someone as they were exiting this plane. She was in a coma like state at the time, but I remember her lifting her head and nodding and I felt comforted by that. As I thought about it days and weeks later…. It was the first glimpse of hope for me that maybe there really was a God and that He moved her head, just for me.

Years later, I am so grateful to be a Christian. To not only know where I am headed, but as someone is dying to let them know where they can go too. Its never too late. Never! Or you can just raise them from the dead and tell
them some of your miraculous parking spot stories just to drive the point home! 🙂 Ha! Any testimony is a good testimony! 🙂 . Just know that when the inevitable end comes, Jesus will show up and you or your unbelieving loved one will go WHOA…..you are for real! And Jesus will give someone a last chance to accept Him. I really believe that. He does not wish that anyone perish. We are all energy AND energy never dies. Your energy or spirit will end up somewhere and I want Y’all to go to the TRUE light with me.

But wouldn’t it be nice to find Him now? To share Him now? This year, as the world seems to be in turmoil? How can you share the goodness of God to unbelievers? Or temporary unbelieving, believers? Not by being a weird a$$ Christian. You know, the Tupperware type of Christian who wants to build a downline. Or the one who annoyingly hands out tracts at Walmart or slips a bible verse into every conversation. You can reach people by just being real. By sharing stories of how God has worked in your life and how you have been changed. Better yet, don’t tell. Show. Be a Godly show off!

God Sees You As He Created You

I recently went for an upcoming eye surgery exam. The tech doing the measurements seemed a little rattled at first. Like I was making him nervous. I don’t know if it was my red hair, my RBF that even a mask fails to hide or that my medical profile states that I suffer from anxiety. It was like he was walking on eggshells! Ha! I was actually as calm as I could possibly be fueled up on no lead coffee.

God started giving me a word and I thought “oh brother, this will definitely escalate the situation. But there were other people in the room with us and I knew I was off the hook because “Ope! Can’t give a personal word in public…” and just like that God had the the other people leave. Ha! I hear God laugh as I type this. “It’s always simple, Jeanne.” So I quickly began to give the guy a word before anyone else could walk in and of course no one does.

The young man, “Dave”, even though surprised, smiled and stopped what he was doing to listen. You could see a light bulb had gone off as he continued to nod his head to what I was saying. God loves His children and wants them to know that He has created them with gifts and talents to share with the world. He also wants them to know that He sees their goodness and loves them RIGHT where they are at. Dave thanked me and you could clearly see that God had touched his heart.

As I got up to leave I heard “Tell Dave he reminds you of Matthew Broderick”. “Oh wow. Yes, it’s been a long time, but I have heard that before.” By the way his mouth dropped open I could tell there was way much more to that story.

I thanked him for being awesome and then Dave left me to wait for the doctor. You know I have never had anyone react badly to a word or tell me they didn’t want to hear one. Except for a terrified server who told us she was a Jehovah Witness and never returned to our table with the bill.

We all want to know that God is alive and well and not just sitting around waiting for us upstairs. Please don’t hesitate to share if you feel something good bubbling up inside of you.

We all hear from God. All of us. God will open the door and make the delivery easy, natural and simple.

How My Daddy Rolls

This morning, as I drove around doing errands, God flashed an image of a young man who works at a grocery store by my old place. God whispered “He is a nice young man. He has a genuinely good heart.” When I arrived home I realized I had forgotten to pick up some drain cleaner. I got back into my car to buy some from a local hardware store about a mile from my house. God said ” No. Go to the grocery store by your old place. Give that young man $10, tell him to buy lunch, and then tell him how I see him. How I see his heart.”

I wasn’t too thrilled, to tell you the truth. The store was 15 minutes away! My hair was dirty, no make-up on and I knew the store would be super busy right before Christmas. I drove to my old hood and when I walked in I didn’t see him cashiering. Oh well. I guess I missed it. Must have been my own head and that cash burning in my pocket talking to me! I turned down the aisle to get the cleaner and there he was. Standing right in front of the cleaner, unpacking stock with another employee. I don’t know why I was amazed that he was right where I needed to be and that the aisle was totally empty, even though the store was packed. God always knows how to set it up so you just walk right into it.

“I don’t want you to think I am weird, but God told me this morning to give you $10. Buy yourself lunch today.” His face lit up and he suddenly looked upward. I could tell a lightbulb went off. It was about noon and maybe it was time for his break. Or maybe he didn’t have any money. Didn’t matter, That was just an icebreaker because, of course, God didn’t stop there. God told him how He saw him. That he was a truly nice person with a big genuine heart for others. That when he had children he would be a good father. That he would be patient and encouraging and that his love for his children would help them become people effective in this world. He would be too and his children would pass this on. Whoa! Sometimes God is a chatty Daddy! His face was lit up the entire time God was speaking to him. His coworker stood silently nearby just taking it all it in. We were not interrupted by anyone and the aisle remained empty.

“Thank you so much! I really really appreciate it. This means a lot to me. God bless you.” “Yes, I know it does. God just wanted you to know that He loves you, sees you, and thinks you are amazing.”What a super blessing it is to be used by God. That encounter made my day! I am continually humbled by how much He loves people through us if we let him. I am sure this young man will have an interesting story to tell his family tonight about a God who paid for his lunch and saw the best in him. Without any strings! Without any come to Jesus meeting!I guess I need to stop being surprised by these encounters. That is just how my Daddy God rolls……Merry Christmas Beloveds!



God’s Best

“Hey, do you want this two lb. hand weight too? Sorry, but I only have one. Otherwise, we’ll toss it.” My sister Jackie casually asked me this weekend; as I was walking out her door with some leftover salad.

Yeehaw! “Yes! And I only need one.” My PT had told me to get one after surgery, and months later I had still failed to remember to buy one. Interestingly, I had just thought about getting one on Friday but didn’t want to dodge the holiday shoppers at Target. In my heart, I heard Big Sky Daddy laugh. Like …I got you, girl!

I cannot tell you how many items or solutions I have needed or wanted in the past month that I told NO ONE about that materialized. NO ONE.

Deuteronomy 28:2, ESV And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you if you obey the voice of the LORD your God.

Peeps! I speak God’s blessings to chase you down and surround you! Overwhelm you! Wherever you are. Day or night. Never late and always on time. Or before you even need them.

I used to believe I had a God who showed up at the last minute because He was trying to teach me to have faith. Nope!

All it did was make me anxious and panicky because I constantly expected God would only show up at the last minute.. and not one second before.

Kind of like ….why are my lost keys always found in the LAST place I’d ever look for them? Ha!

Read it again.

I get what I expect. I expect God’s best for me because He is My Father, He loves me and chose me before the beginning of time.

Read it again.

God’s best blessings, Beloveds.

Dunkin For Jesus

10:05 am and I nervously waited for the Dunker and the Dunkees to arrive. Cold weather had suddenly turned a Sunday morning, private outdoor water baptism into a very public hotel pool one. I offered up my hotel pool and hoped we’d get this done quickly before we got the boot.

I waited in the lobby to direct everyone to the pool area. 5 minutes later, it is like I opened up the door to a clown car! Holy Crap on a Cracker! Tons of people streamed in and now I am really anxious! I’m glad I already had put my bag in my car because if we get tossed out, I want to be the first person out of the building! I am amazed, that even at my age, I am still worried about getting 86’d even when the only wine involved, was Jesus!

We all finally get into the pool area and I noticed an older man, older woman and a small child in the pool. You could see they were a little perplexed by all of the people just standing around the pool, talking, with their JACKETS still on! Everyone was super excited to be there, except the people already in the pool.

First the woman got out and literally snorted as she walked past me. Minutes later the man got out, wrapped a towel around his red trunks and started shaking his head. I whispered to the Dunker , “lets get this going before we get kicked out!” Red Trunks, was visibly angry and starts taking photos of the Dunker and the 5 Dunkees who are now standing in the pool. The little girl was still in the pool, but she wasn’t afraid. In fact, she moved closer to the group so she could see what was going on.

Red Trunks left the area to complain and moments later an employee arrives, looks around and leaves. Back in came Red Trunks who paced directly behind me as he took more photos.

The Dunker started speaking to the Dunkees, but I couldn’t hear them. I stood near the door and prayed no one would interrupt. Ok, I really prayed that no one would yell at us. Red Trunks decided to leave and as he walked out two young men and a woman came in. Oh no. This was a very nice hotel on a large university campus and it was a very busy alumni weekend. A lot of people might start showing up to swim. I looked over at the group and gave the TV studio hand signal to wrap it up! Unfortunately, it just looked like I was giving them a whoop whoop!

The young couple continued to stand and watch and then the young man told his friends, “wait, don’t go in there yet. They are doing a water baptism.” I was super impressed that this young man even realized what we were doing. Maybe the Dunker’s Jesus T’shirt was a give away 🙂 I smiled”, Oh that”s okay, you can go in”. “No, this is important. We can wait.” I smiled ” I am just hoping we don’t get booted first.” He looked at me and laughed “Hey how cool that you are doing this out in public like this. Getting tossed out would be a good persecution for your faith.” I nodded and turned to watch the rest of the proceedings.

After that I didn’t worry about anyone coming in. Jesus and me. We had it under control. I just quietly did some warfare to keep Red Trunks or any other forces from coming in to spoil our fun.

I am always touched by a water baptism, but this time it was so much more. I was more touched that, while I was ridiculously afraid of going to hotel jail, this young man thought it was cool and perfectly normal to endure a little pool side persecution for your faith.

No One A Stranger

Today, God reminded me as I sip hot coffee that not everyone will be warm today. I recall one Friday night, my bud Gretchen and I were invited to speak to a group of homeless men at an inner city shelter. A requirement for getting a bed for the night was sitting through some music ministry and a little preachin of the Good Word 🙂 Let’s just say, we had a captive audience.

I was terrified, to say the least. The majority stared out at the ministry team with blank expressions. When it was our turn to speak, I told them at one time I had lost everything and schlepped around on people’s couches for 6 months and felt terrible about myself. That I wasn’t going to pretend that I could really relate to what they were going through, but that I knew God really loved them, right now as there were. Gretchen spoke about a broken tooth being miraculously repaired when she couldn’t afford a dentist and how God cared about our every need. No matter how small.

We then invited the men to come up to get hands laid on for healing. Many came forward and we had some WOK and prophecy for them too. I was surprised at how quite a few wanted to be touched or hugged and cried when God spoke through us with a word of love or encouragement.

Later, Pastor David, who invited us, told us that normally most don’t walk up for prayer. That the men were obviously touched by our transparency and authenticity. We were being real with them! We weren’t preaching at them and just wanted to show them love. The Father’s love.

The homeless may be addicts, mentally ill or had a bad turn of luck. But…..please remember they are someone’s son, brother, husband or friend. Instead of turning away, maybe hand them some money or stop and talk for a moment. Or pray with them. The weather will soon get colder and there won’t always be a bed or space for them.

Not asking you to take them into your house. I am asking you to treat them like human beings. Be terrified and do it anyway.

Laying Down The Law

“Hi, I’m Ruby! I was startled as a young woman jumped in front of my wheelchair. ” I am here to take you down to surgical registration.”

Kathy, my sister, and she began to make small talk, and Ruby mentioned she had to leave this afternoon for school and was expecting rain. ” I am going to school to be a dental hygenist as it pays more and then will use that to pay for law school.

As the elevator doors opened, ” God whispered, ” She was created to help others in legal matters.” “Can you say that again, God?” I was still stressed out from just having a wire driven through my breast and an armpit piped full of radioactive dye. God continued,” I have a word for her. I’ll tell you when.” Great. I’m in the middle of a busy hospital, my sister Kathy already thinks I’m a little wacko 🙂, so you can figure it out.”

As we got inside, I said,” Hey, I don’t want you to think I’m weird, but God just gave me a word for you. You were created to practice law, Don’t worry about money or time. You will just walk right into it.” She laughed and told us as a kid that she was obsessed with the OJ Simpson trial and knew at that time she wanted to practice law. Kathy nodded, “Me too.” ‘The elevator door then opened, and she rolled my wheelchair into the hallway and put on the brakes. She looked through the glass doors to the registration staff, “They can come out here as you are in a wheelchair.” Then turned back to me to hear more.

I continued.” Do you know what a word of knowledge or prophecy is? “I sure do. I was brought up in a Pentecostal church. And…..” A person from registration walked towards us, and Ruby said, “don’t worry, she can wait. I want to hear this.” There were now so many people in the hallway that I had momentarily blocked myself from hearing God by the distraction, but Ruby waited patiently.

Finally, I blurted out. “This is going to sound like I am reading your mail, but God told me that you can be very suspicious. Very mistrusting of people, but this will work to your advantage. You don’t always like this about yourself, but this makes you very analytical. You can see many sides of a situation. What you see as your mistrust not always being good, it will actually be your gift, making you a great lawyer. You were called to do this.” Ruby’s mouth dropped open, and I could tell a lightbulb had gone off. ” Does this make sense to you, Ruby?” Why yes, it does! I could see she was still shocked as the elevator opened to move her on elsewhere. “Thank you for telling me this! I really needed it today.”

Days like this make my faith even stronger. Perhaps Ruby’s too.
God is everywhere. Your circumstances will never stop Him from speaking or moving thru you.

Love Never Dies

I sat on the edge of my bathtub and sobbed. Am I losing it? I can’t stop crying lately. I am physically and emotionally overwhelmed with decisions I need to make, upcoming surgeries, a new job, and I am still grieving Dan. The last thing I needed was 2 large cracks in my bathtub. My imagination ran wild with water gushing to the wood below, causing mildew and thousands of $ in repairs.

I stood up, put my head against the bathroom wall, continued to cry, and wished I could call Dan. “This bathroom needs some color, and a few inexpensive upgrades will make your place look less like the 1980s.” Two years ago, he painted these walls purple while I was at work and hung up a new light fixture.

My Dan could build or fix anything, and I had a reminder of him in every room of my house. Especially my purple bathroom! I recalled one day when I couldn’t figure out how to take down a ceiling light fixture. He laughed, “That’s why you have me!” as his 6’3″ self quickly reached up to remove it and replace a bulb.”

“God, I miss Dan so much! I wish he was still here. He was my rock. I know he is busy in heaven, but I hope he thinks about me sometimes. I wish someone would bring me some more orange flowers as a sign that he does.” Then I felt stupid about wanting a sign. Aren’t I a bigger believer than that? Besides, haven’t enough people brought me orange flowers since he died? Maybe people just do it because they think I expect it. If people did it out of duty then it would mean they were no longer from Heaven.

I continued to cry the next day as I wandered around my home, avoiding the cracks. Grow up, Jeanne! Call a handyman! God started to whisper, “you can fix this. It’s not that hard. Get your sister to help” Carolyn phoned a heartbeat later and was surprised I was so hysterical. “Geez, they are just cracks!” But she soon drove over, and I stood frozen in a corner of the bathroom while she easily epoxied the crevices. God whispered, “See! Was that so terrible”  No, it wasn’t, God. What is bad is feeling all alone and not having Dan here to go through life with me.” God continued, “But you’re never alone. You just think you are”.

The next day my friend Christine drove over to hang out for the afternoon. “Hello!” She yelled out as she came thru my back door.  I looked up to see her arms were loaded with stuff.  Is that what I think it is?  I squealed, “Did you bring me flowers?”  She handed me a bouquet wrapped in paper, “Yes, but the flowers are the weirdest color combination. I don’t know if you’ll even like it. It’s orange roses and purple lilies. Who would put orange and purple together?”

I know who would …. and they are perfect!  Love never dies, nor leaves you alone.