Finding Faith

Do you struggle with having enough Faith to see God move in your life?

Faith is moved by love. Not by how many bible verses you can recite, how much you read your bible, or highlight the crap out of it. 

YOUR FAITH IS MOVED AND INCREASED BY LOVE. NOT BY YOU LOVING GOD.OR EVEN YOU LOVING YOUR NEIGHBOR. FAITH INCREASES BY YOU REALIZING HOW MUCH GOD LOVES YOU! Receiving and accepting the unconditional, unfailing, all-consuming, perfect, and never-ending love by the one that created you! 

Regardless of your past. Regardless of your future. Regardless if you have denied Him your entire life up until now.

Just know Jesus and Father God love you RIGHT NOW. Right where you are. Right in the middle of that big poop hole you are in. Even if you can’t or aren’t ready to wade out of it. Even if being stuck in the muck proves a point to someone you love to hate. Or worse yet, want to punish. Even if that is yourself.

You have heard that faith moves mountains. That faith heals, saves, and delivers. But you can never figure out how much faith you need or where to find it. Or why it comes so quickly to others or why you can’t seem to hang onto it 24/7. And if one more person tells you that you already have everything you need, you will scream. WHY? Because you have been trying so hard to believe you already have it, but you just can’t SEE IT! Aggghhhh, We’re making it too hard, peeps.

It is simply love. GOD’S LOVE FOR YOU! Accepting that God loves you and has your back no matter what. When you finally realize His love for you, you will see it. Not because it wasn’t there before, but it’s hard to embrace what you don’t feel you deserve. You were created by God for such a time as this. EXPECT God’s goodness in every area of your life. That all of God’s goodness will manifest for you! Then start keeping a journal of blessings that come your way. I have, and it’s making a difference. Not only do I see how God has been working in my life so far, but it helps to give me confidence that He will continue to do so. 

That, my beloveds, is what will heal you, deliver you and move your mountains.

I finally get it! Stay warm, darlings………

Change

Tonight I stopped to get gas, at my favorite Holiday station, and decided to get a car wash too. I opened my purse to pay with my debit card and I saw two $1 bills. Great!

“Can I also get a Gopher 5 and a….” I suddenly paused. I wanted another $1 lottery ticket and I heard in my spirit “NO. Give it to the car wash attendant”. Nah, Its just a dollar and again, I started to say “And a “…..” but I heard, “give it to the attendant”. I got back in my car and I thought to myself, “Sure, this is the night I could win Hot Lotto and I should just go back in and buy the dang ticket. Just the devil trying to stop me, because you know if I won, God, I would help so many people. 🙂 I’ll just get my car washed tomorrow instead and I will dig up the cash for a tip then.”

Ha! How stupid. How many times have we bought into the lie that we better buy a ticket, because THIS could be the night. I sat in my car for several minutes debating with myself about it before I drove around the back of the building to get in line for the car wash. God spoke again…. “Give him your change too. Not the pennies. The big change”. Nah, I think change, for a tip, is demeaning. I will only give him the dollar bill. Not many people tip these guys anyway. “Give him your change.” Hard to deny the Father when you heard Him say it a second time.

I started to dig into the Bermuda Triangle, that I call my purse, and was surprised to find a large handful of change. Must have been at least $4-$5. Then i start digging through the cup holder for more change and I am tossing out the pennies. Can’t give the guy pennies, he will think I am a crazy old lady. I looked up and saw a young man with long blonde hair waving me forward. I had a hard time trying to fit my left tire into that little conveyer slot with one hand ,while holding onto a fistful of change and a wadded up dollar bill in the other. He looked bored and annoyed. I rolled down my window and shoved the change towards him as I blurted “Hi, I don’t want you to think I am weird or anything, but God told me to give you a bunch of change. You must need it for something”. The guy opened up both of his hands to receive it and flashed me a smile. “Thanks”. He then stuffed it into his back pocket, handed me a wet towel and said “Really. Thank you, every bit helps me.” He didn’t even look surprised or weirded out!

I am glad when I listen to God’s urging. Even if I have to wrestle with myself a little before I follow through. I had never seen this attendant before so maybe he was a new employee. Maybe he needed the money. Maybe he didn’t. Or maybe he just needed to hear that God was thinking about him and cared enough to have some strange woman gift him a handful of BIG change. I stopped trying to figure it out a long time ago. It just feels good to be a partner in His Kingdom.

God Helps Those….

Did you know there is no verse in the bible that says, “God only helps those who help themselves?” Don’t believe me? Go look. I’ll wait 🙂

We have gotten this so drilled into us that it is hard to give things to God and not get our fingers in the pot too. “I need to help, God! To move things along faster. Or make sure it gets done. Or the right people get involved. In the way, I need it to play out. I have to do SOMETHING! Even if it is just getting angry and worrying. At least when I am worrying, I feel involved. It’s hard to just give it to you, trust and be at peace! That feels lazy and childlike. Like I am not doing anything to help myself.”

Ever feel like that?

After a discussion at church yesterday about this very issue, I prayed last night, ” Lord, I just give everything to you. Regardless if I take authority on it, I’m just giving everything to you to sort out. My faith and trust are doing something. That is my part in it.”

I want to tell you that was hard. It’s scary thinking you have to trust someone with your stuff. Especially your junk. The junk you had a hand in.

Today, I went to my mailbox, and there was a package of books that I had ordered in early December that had gone missing. I was so angry at some porch pirates possibly taking my books! I called the post office 4 times only to find out they were delivered half a block from me. I also confronted the mailman! I had friends telling me they would give me $25 bucks to reorder so I would just stop talking about it!

“Wow. Did the ministry ship me a new set?”

I heard God laugh. “Look at the ship date! It’s 12/13/21.”

“Wow, how did that happen, God?”

” I told you they were coming back.”

“But…..” “

I told you not to reorder because they would show up.”

“Oh yeah, I forgot about that soon after as I had other things to help you with.”

God keeps His promises. Even if it is just books on sale.
Wanting to help Him may not go away quickly. Lord, help us to just give you stuff and let it go. Or help us speak to the mountain and then trust and get out of the way.

The Lord helps those….. whom He created and adores.

Never An Inconvenience

As I drove home from the dentist, I felt an urgent need to remove the salt from my car. “Nah, it’s too cold; I’ll do it tomorrow. God whispered, ” Go to the Holiday station near your old house and give the car wash attendant a $5 tip.” I thought, “Really? 5 bucks? I’m retired now.” God laughs. Ever heard God laugh in your head? It’s delightful yet directive. Hard to argue with Big Sky Daddy.

As I changed course, I heard, “Tell him he is smarter than he thinks and that I love him.” Ok. I know God will have more to say when I open my mouth. I sure hope so; I always feel weird just saying, “God loves you!” Like it’s just a cliche. Or it is a phrase some Christians drop before they force fear salvation on someone. Like God loves you! Where do you think you will go when you die? Now let’s get you going up instead of down!” 🙂

I smiled as I pulled up to the gas pump until I reached for my debit card and the contents of my purse dumped out. Dumped out as in it landed in between my seats. Yikes! My pudgy hand couldn’t squeeze in there, and I will have to dig it out later. I chose a gas, added a car wash, and hoped that the receipt with the car wash code would print out when I was done. Nope. Now I am annoyed. It is cold and busy, and I now have to go into the store for the receipt. Suddenly I am not feeling much like Jesus. It’s easier to feel holy when we aren’t inconvenienced. God whispered, “This isn’t about you.”

I finally pulled into the car wash, and a really young man in dreads waved me in. “Oh, this should be interesting. Maybe he doesn’t even believe in God.” God whispered, ” Looks are deceiving.” ” I hand him the $5 and blurt. “I don’t want you to think I’m weird or anything but God told me on the way over here to tell you that you are smarter than you think and have more resources than you are aware of. He loves you and wants you to be happy. Don’t let those around you pressure you to follow a path you don’t want to.”

He looked shocked, and then his mouth dropped open. I suddenly felt some guilt. Like he thought he had to stand there and listen to me because I handed him some money. He put his hand up to give me a high 5. “Thank you so much! Do you know how much I needed to hear this today? I really needed to hear this. God uses the minds of men as His mouthpiece. I can’t believe God would send you over here just to tell me this! This is amazing.” I smiled. “Well. you can’t out cool God.” I then told him the city where I live and that God had sent me back to my old neighborhood to this gas station. “Wow, just for me. I will definitely remember the words God spoke through you.” “Yes, just for you.” He gave me another high five, and as my car started to be dragged by the conveyor, I shouted over the noise,” And He told me to hand you $5 and to go buy something to drink.” Again, the attendant’s mouth dropped open, and I smiled as this obviously meant something too.

We make this too difficult! People tell me all the time they want to do a ride-along with me when God gives me words for people. I’m afraid you will be bored. Better to ask God to help you speak out what you hear without fear. Even if it is inconvenient.

My most immense joy is to have Big Sky Daddy adventures and share them with others. Reminds me that He is for real, loves me, and someday I am going UP too!

Start sharing those stories!

Wishing you God’s richest blessings, Beloveds.

Elvis Has Left The Building

5 pm: I parked my car and walked slowly toward the nursing home entrance. I wanted to pray over my cousin Susie and wasn’t sure how my Auntie Evonne and several other family members would react. I decided I would just pray quietly so it wouldn’t offend anyone.

I introduced myself to the first nurse I saw and told her I was looking for my aunt. She flashed me a huge smile “Oh you just missed them! They left for dinner 20 minutes ago, but they’ll be back.”

Yay! I’m alone and can pray in tongues now!

“Ok. I’d like to see my cousin Susie Johnson. What room is she in?”

“Hmmm I don’t think she is here. I think she is gone, but let me check her room”

As I waited for the nurse to return, I glanced down both long hallways looking for the residents. It was so quiet that I figured they must all be in the dining room.

The nurse reappeared from her room with an armful of towels “ Yes. She’s gone.”

“Gone? For dinner?”

The nurse smiled ” No, no ….as in passed on. I think she left right after your aunt did, but you can go in and see her if you want. Room 102” Then she turned around and walked away.

I was like WTH? Nurse Jackie had just said “gone” like my cousin was only temporarily preoccupied . Like maybe away dining on some gravy lathered mystery meat. Or in the shower. I then got on my phone and called my aunt and cousins to tell them that sadly Elvis had already left the building. Evonne replied “ Ok, well we haven’t ordered yet so it will be awhile” What? Was I the only one distressed?

After the calls, I walked into Susie’s room and laid my hands on her feet and briefly prayed. I didn’t know about dead raising back then so I didn’t stay long. When I finished my prayers I then apologized that I hadn’t gotten their earlier.

As I walked out Nurse Jackie waved to me and called out” Have a nice evening ! I’ll tell Evonne you were here!”

Today, I relayed this old story to my cousin Susie’s brother Tom and we both started laughing! Like hysterically laughing! Isn’t that terrible! He said “they must see so much death that it no longer affects them.” Maybe.

I still wish I would have gotten there earlier. Time here is short. Please never pass up an opportunity to pray with someone. Or tell them you and Big Sky Daddy loves them. Even if it’s by phone or text. Some day we will all leave the building and only the living will have regrets.

Make it a great week peeps!

Godly Show Off

For me, some January’s are worse then others. Its like a body memory. I feel this void. An unexplainable weirdness. Like something just ain’t right. Then it hits me. Mom! In 1991, our family spent most of that super cold month visiting my mother in hospice, until she launched on January 28th. Even though I have plenty of spiritual mothers, the death of your MOM leaves a hole that can’t quite be filled by anyone.

I wasn’t a Christian back then and I recall pleading with my mother, “Go with the people to the light! Do you understand me? Go with the people to the light!” The people? What people? What light? I wasn’t quite sure. I just knew that as a good little New Ager that was the most enlightened thing you could say to someone as they were exiting this plane. She was in a coma like state at the time, but I remember her lifting her head and nodding and I felt comforted by that. As I thought about it days and weeks later…. It was the first glimpse of hope for me that maybe there really was a God and that He moved her head, just for me.

Years later, I am so grateful to be a Christian. To not only know where I am headed, but as someone is dying to let them know where they can go too. Its never too late. Never! Or you can just raise them from the dead and tell
them some of your miraculous parking spot stories just to drive the point home! 🙂 Ha! Any testimony is a good testimony! 🙂 . Just know that when the inevitable end comes, Jesus will show up and you or your unbelieving loved one will go WHOA…..you are for real! And Jesus will give someone a last chance to accept Him. I really believe that. He does not wish that anyone perish. We are all energy AND energy never dies. Your energy or spirit will end up somewhere and I want Y’all to go to the TRUE light with me.

But wouldn’t it be nice to find Him now? To share Him now? This year, as the world seems to be in turmoil? How can you share the goodness of God to unbelievers? Or temporary unbelieving, believers? Not by being a weird a$$ Christian. You know, the Tupperware type of Christian who wants to build a downline. Or the one who annoyingly hands out tracts at Walmart or slips a bible verse into every conversation. You can reach people by just being real. By sharing stories of how God has worked in your life and how you have been changed. Better yet, don’t tell. Show. Be a Godly show off!

God Sees You As He Created You

I recently went for an upcoming eye surgery exam. The tech doing the measurements seemed a little rattled at first. Like I was making him nervous. I don’t know if it was my red hair, my RBF that even a mask fails to hide or that my medical profile states that I suffer from anxiety. It was like he was walking on eggshells! Ha! I was actually as calm as I could possibly be fueled up on no lead coffee.

God started giving me a word and I thought “oh brother, this will definitely escalate the situation. But there were other people in the room with us and I knew I was off the hook because “Ope! Can’t give a personal word in public…” and just like that God had the the other people leave. Ha! I hear God laugh as I type this. “It’s always simple, Jeanne.” So I quickly began to give the guy a word before anyone else could walk in and of course no one does.

The young man, “Dave”, even though surprised, smiled and stopped what he was doing to listen. You could see a light bulb had gone off as he continued to nod his head to what I was saying. God loves His children and wants them to know that He has created them with gifts and talents to share with the world. He also wants them to know that He sees their goodness and loves them RIGHT where they are at. Dave thanked me and you could clearly see that God had touched his heart.

As I got up to leave I heard “Tell Dave he reminds you of Matthew Broderick”. “Oh wow. Yes, it’s been a long time, but I have heard that before.” By the way his mouth dropped open I could tell there was way much more to that story.

I thanked him for being awesome and then Dave left me to wait for the doctor. You know I have never had anyone react badly to a word or tell me they didn’t want to hear one. Except for a terrified server who told us she was a Jehovah Witness and never returned to our table with the bill.

We all want to know that God is alive and well and not just sitting around waiting for us upstairs. Please don’t hesitate to share if you feel something good bubbling up inside of you.

We all hear from God. All of us. God will open the door and make the delivery easy, natural and simple.

How My Daddy Rolls

This morning, as I drove around doing errands, God flashed an image of a young man who works at a grocery store by my old place. God whispered “He is a nice young man. He has a genuinely good heart.” When I arrived home I realized I had forgotten to pick up some drain cleaner. I got back into my car to buy some from a local hardware store about a mile from my house. God said ” No. Go to the grocery store by your old place. Give that young man $10, tell him to buy lunch, and then tell him how I see him. How I see his heart.”

I wasn’t too thrilled, to tell you the truth. The store was 15 minutes away! My hair was dirty, no make-up on and I knew the store would be super busy right before Christmas. I drove to my old hood and when I walked in I didn’t see him cashiering. Oh well. I guess I missed it. Must have been my own head and that cash burning in my pocket talking to me! I turned down the aisle to get the cleaner and there he was. Standing right in front of the cleaner, unpacking stock with another employee. I don’t know why I was amazed that he was right where I needed to be and that the aisle was totally empty, even though the store was packed. God always knows how to set it up so you just walk right into it.

“I don’t want you to think I am weird, but God told me this morning to give you $10. Buy yourself lunch today.” His face lit up and he suddenly looked upward. I could tell a lightbulb went off. It was about noon and maybe it was time for his break. Or maybe he didn’t have any money. Didn’t matter, That was just an icebreaker because, of course, God didn’t stop there. God told him how He saw him. That he was a truly nice person with a big genuine heart for others. That when he had children he would be a good father. That he would be patient and encouraging and that his love for his children would help them become people effective in this world. He would be too and his children would pass this on. Whoa! Sometimes God is a chatty Daddy! His face was lit up the entire time God was speaking to him. His coworker stood silently nearby just taking it all it in. We were not interrupted by anyone and the aisle remained empty.

“Thank you so much! I really really appreciate it. This means a lot to me. God bless you.” “Yes, I know it does. God just wanted you to know that He loves you, sees you, and thinks you are amazing.”What a super blessing it is to be used by God. That encounter made my day! I am continually humbled by how much He loves people through us if we let him. I am sure this young man will have an interesting story to tell his family tonight about a God who paid for his lunch and saw the best in him. Without any strings! Without any come to Jesus meeting!I guess I need to stop being surprised by these encounters. That is just how my Daddy God rolls……Merry Christmas Beloveds!



Encourage And Edify

Several years ago, I drove through my favorite place to get coffee. The young woman at the window greeted me “Hello, what do you think of my new shirt?” She kind of half twirled around so I could see it and then pointed to the company logo that was just beneath her left shoulder. ” Nice!” I guess I really didn’t know what to say, as to me, it was just another long sleeved t-shirt. She gave me a big smile ” Its a shift lead shirt! I am now a shift lead!” Oh! No wonder she was excited! She is someone who mans the window regularly and I had given her a word a month earlier that God saw her in management. That she led by a good example. She was mature, calm under pressure and would make a great leader. I smiled. “That’s great!

I paid for my coffee and then handed her a $20 bill and said Merry Christmas. “Oh I can’t take that!” “You can’t?” “Well I could, but I can’t. You don’t need to do that” “Please take it, I have an appointment over here and on my drive over God told me you would be working and to drive through and give you $20. He must want you to have it for some reason.” She thanked me and I drove off.

I thought I hope she doesn’t think I am strange. Or creepy! Stranger danger! Stranger danger! Ha! Then I thought who cares! I can be odd…..odd in the Lord! Ha! I just do what He tells me to do.

You may not remember when God gives you a WOK or prophecy for someone, but they will. Like Godfrey Birtill ‘s song “Just one touch from the King, changes everything!” It does!

This woman was later promoted to manager and eventually left for a better job at a larger establishment. Never under estimate what God can do through you if you let Him. That is why it is important to edify and encourage and not just read somebody’s mail. It might just change someone’s future.

Thanks Daddy God! That really blessed me. Who ever said life as a Christian was boring, must have never really had one.