Finding Faith

Do you struggle with having enough Faith to see God move in your life?

Faith is moved by love. Not by how many bible verses you can recite, how much you read your bible, or highlight the crap out of it. 

YOUR FAITH IS MOVED AND INCREASED BY LOVE. NOT BY YOU LOVING GOD.OR EVEN YOU LOVING YOUR NEIGHBOR. FAITH INCREASES BY YOU REALIZING HOW MUCH GOD LOVES YOU! Receiving and accepting the unconditional, unfailing, all-consuming, perfect, and never-ending love by the one that created you! 

Regardless of your past. Regardless of your future. Regardless if you have denied Him your entire life up until now.

Just know Jesus and Father God love you RIGHT NOW. Right where you are. Right in the middle of that big poop hole you are in. Even if you can’t or aren’t ready to wade out of it. Even if being stuck in the muck proves a point to someone you love to hate. Or worse yet, want to punish. Even if that is yourself.

You have heard that faith moves mountains. That faith heals, saves, and delivers. But you can never figure out how much faith you need or where to find it. Or why it comes so quickly to others or why you can’t seem to hang onto it 24/7. And if one more person tells you that you already have everything you need, you will scream. WHY? Because you have been trying so hard to believe you already have it, but you just can’t SEE IT! Aggghhhh, We’re making it too hard, peeps.

It is simply love. GOD’S LOVE FOR YOU! Accepting that God loves you and has your back no matter what. When you finally realize His love for you, you will see it. Not because it wasn’t there before, but it’s hard to embrace what you don’t feel you deserve. You were created by God for such a time as this. EXPECT God’s goodness in every area of your life. That all of God’s goodness will manifest for you! Then start keeping a journal of blessings that come your way. I have, and it’s making a difference. Not only do I see how God has been working in my life so far, but it helps to give me confidence that He will continue to do so. 

That, my beloveds, is what will heal you, deliver you and move your mountains.

I finally get it! Stay warm, darlings………

God Helps Those….

Did you know there is no verse in the bible that says, “God only helps those who help themselves?” Don’t believe me? Go look. I’ll wait 🙂

We have gotten this so drilled into us that it is hard to give things to God and not get our fingers in the pot too. “I need to help, God! To move things along faster. Or make sure it gets done. Or the right people get involved. In the way, I need it to play out. I have to do SOMETHING! Even if it is just getting angry and worrying. At least when I am worrying, I feel involved. It’s hard to just give it to you, trust and be at peace! That feels lazy and childlike. Like I am not doing anything to help myself.”

Ever feel like that?

After a discussion at church yesterday about this very issue, I prayed last night, ” Lord, I just give everything to you. Regardless if I take authority on it, I’m just giving everything to you to sort out. My faith and trust are doing something. That is my part in it.”

I want to tell you that was hard. It’s scary thinking you have to trust someone with your stuff. Especially your junk. The junk you had a hand in.

Today, I went to my mailbox, and there was a package of books that I had ordered in early December that had gone missing. I was so angry at some porch pirates possibly taking my books! I called the post office 4 times only to find out they were delivered half a block from me. I also confronted the mailman! I had friends telling me they would give me $25 bucks to reorder so I would just stop talking about it!

“Wow. Did the ministry ship me a new set?”

I heard God laugh. “Look at the ship date! It’s 12/13/21.”

“Wow, how did that happen, God?”

” I told you they were coming back.”

“But…..” “

I told you not to reorder because they would show up.”

“Oh yeah, I forgot about that soon after as I had other things to help you with.”

God keeps His promises. Even if it is just books on sale.
Wanting to help Him may not go away quickly. Lord, help us to just give you stuff and let it go. Or help us speak to the mountain and then trust and get out of the way.

The Lord helps those….. whom He created and adores.

Godly Show Off

For me, some January’s are worse then others. Its like a body memory. I feel this void. An unexplainable weirdness. Like something just ain’t right. Then it hits me. Mom! In 1991, our family spent most of that super cold month visiting my mother in hospice, until she launched on January 28th. Even though I have plenty of spiritual mothers, the death of your MOM leaves a hole that can’t quite be filled by anyone.

I wasn’t a Christian back then and I recall pleading with my mother, “Go with the people to the light! Do you understand me? Go with the people to the light!” The people? What people? What light? I wasn’t quite sure. I just knew that as a good little New Ager that was the most enlightened thing you could say to someone as they were exiting this plane. She was in a coma like state at the time, but I remember her lifting her head and nodding and I felt comforted by that. As I thought about it days and weeks later…. It was the first glimpse of hope for me that maybe there really was a God and that He moved her head, just for me.

Years later, I am so grateful to be a Christian. To not only know where I am headed, but as someone is dying to let them know where they can go too. Its never too late. Never! Or you can just raise them from the dead and tell
them some of your miraculous parking spot stories just to drive the point home! 🙂 Ha! Any testimony is a good testimony! 🙂 . Just know that when the inevitable end comes, Jesus will show up and you or your unbelieving loved one will go WHOA…..you are for real! And Jesus will give someone a last chance to accept Him. I really believe that. He does not wish that anyone perish. We are all energy AND energy never dies. Your energy or spirit will end up somewhere and I want Y’all to go to the TRUE light with me.

But wouldn’t it be nice to find Him now? To share Him now? This year, as the world seems to be in turmoil? How can you share the goodness of God to unbelievers? Or temporary unbelieving, believers? Not by being a weird a$$ Christian. You know, the Tupperware type of Christian who wants to build a downline. Or the one who annoyingly hands out tracts at Walmart or slips a bible verse into every conversation. You can reach people by just being real. By sharing stories of how God has worked in your life and how you have been changed. Better yet, don’t tell. Show. Be a Godly show off!

No Weapons

“Isaiah 54:17” No weapon formed against you will prosper. 

God’s word says that no weapon formed against you will prosper. 

He did not say that there would not be any weapons created. He said it….or they…… would not win, flourish or triumph). Read it again. 

I used to know someone who constantly said, “Give thanks to the Lord in good times and in bad. Especially in the bad times.”

I actually had a hard time with that. Why would I be thanking God when things were going wrong? Wouldn’t that mean that God brought it on for some reason? For some higher good? Thank you Sir, may I have another?! 

I’m Big Sky Daddy’s kid! Why couldn’t things always just go right? 

We can easily forget that we have the authority to take hold of the crap storm before it starts. Often, we get a little whisper that tells us before the clouds even begin to form. Nah! I’m just being paranoid. That couldn’t possibly happen. Nope. Maybe it’s your spirit giving you a heads up about that weapon starting to be assembled. You can learn to be calm in the eye of the storm, but don’t you have better things to do? Like, spend those Kohl’s dollars? 

Years ago, I recalled getting this feeling that I was secretly being listened to at work. At first, it felt like paranoia, but I knew it was true in my heart. One of my managers started repeating to me, verbatim, things my coworkers or I had said in conversations in my office. How did he know what was said? Or what I did last weekend? Then I started to have dreams about hidden mics and searched everything in my office numerous times and found nothing. Then one day, as I was walking by an empty office next to mine, the Holy Spirit said “it’s in there, behind the picture that hangs on the wall that is directly behind you.” I walked in and lifted the frame, and there was a wireless lavaliere mic attached to the wire that it hung on. I was shocked, to say the least. Someone walked past and asked me what I was doing, and I returned to my office. 15 minutes later, after most had gone to lunch, I went back into the empty office, and the mic had been removed. Hmmm. How many people were in on it?

Pay attention to what you are feeling in your heart. Maybe it’s true. Perhaps you aren’t crazy or had too much coffee. Maybe you can stop or get ahead of the storm before it builds up pressure. Or play those clouds to your advantage. But no worries if you totally miss it. God can still bring out the sun and create rainbows regardless of whether you get caught in the downpour.

Isaiah 54:17 Amplified 

“No weapon that is formed against you will succeed;

And every tongue that rises against you in judgment you will condemn.

This [peace, righteousness, security, and triumph over opposition] is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,

And this is their vindication from Me,” says the Lord.

Special Love

2019: He walked into the room and I couldn’t keep my eyes off of him. An energy and light emitted from him like a beautiful sunrise and I could feel a Godly presence. It was one of those moments when you knew your senses were in both realms and I was in awe. For months, I had heard all about him but this was the first time we had met. Destin, an RN from Hospice, calmly attended to my father as he spoke to him like an old friend. “Can he hear you?” ” Sure can. He’s tough and isn’t ready to go yet. What a character. I bet he was a fun dad.” I broke down and Destin stopped what he was doing.

“We haven’t always gotten along and its nice to have this quiet time with him.” I filled Destin and his partner in on what we and the staff had observed. I also told him that I had asked the staff that if they were Christian, would they please pray over him when they were in the room. The staff was very happy that I had given them permission as they had grown very attached to my father. Destin seemed surprised by this as I am sure that prayer isn’t a common request.

That opened the door to a discussion on the spiritual realm and how we could make this an easier transition for my father to launch, as I call it. It was so comforting to talk in a perspective I believed in and Destin’s light only shined brighter. God whispered I have a word for Destin and before I could argue with myself if this was appropriate “Do you know what a word of knowledge or prophecy is?” He looked surprised. “Why, yes I do.”

” God is showing me that you already have this in you. That you will help others transition peacefully as they will see how much God loves them and is known by Him. You will help families heal and restore their relationships by the words God will give you to say.” I went on to tell him other things that God was showing me about him and his future and Destin teared up. Yes Destin, you are loved and known by God too.

God is speaking all the time. To you and to others through you. Not of His judgement and condemnation, but of His love and mercy for His children. All of His children. Regardless if they believe yet or not. I decided today that I never want to miss an opportunity to be used by God so that people know His heart for them.

My father’s pending demise has been really bittersweet. I will miss him terribly but know that this is also a very special time for God’s love to shine.

Merry and Blessed Christmas my beloved peeps. May you all know God’s special love for you this week.

How My Daddy Rolls

This morning, as I drove around doing errands, God flashed an image of a young man who works at a grocery store by my old place. God whispered “He is a nice young man. He has a genuinely good heart.” When I arrived home I realized I had forgotten to pick up some drain cleaner. I got back into my car to buy some from a local hardware store about a mile from my house. God said ” No. Go to the grocery store by your old place. Give that young man $10, tell him to buy lunch, and then tell him how I see him. How I see his heart.”

I wasn’t too thrilled, to tell you the truth. The store was 15 minutes away! My hair was dirty, no make-up on and I knew the store would be super busy right before Christmas. I drove to my old hood and when I walked in I didn’t see him cashiering. Oh well. I guess I missed it. Must have been my own head and that cash burning in my pocket talking to me! I turned down the aisle to get the cleaner and there he was. Standing right in front of the cleaner, unpacking stock with another employee. I don’t know why I was amazed that he was right where I needed to be and that the aisle was totally empty, even though the store was packed. God always knows how to set it up so you just walk right into it.

“I don’t want you to think I am weird, but God told me this morning to give you $10. Buy yourself lunch today.” His face lit up and he suddenly looked upward. I could tell a lightbulb went off. It was about noon and maybe it was time for his break. Or maybe he didn’t have any money. Didn’t matter, That was just an icebreaker because, of course, God didn’t stop there. God told him how He saw him. That he was a truly nice person with a big genuine heart for others. That when he had children he would be a good father. That he would be patient and encouraging and that his love for his children would help them become people effective in this world. He would be too and his children would pass this on. Whoa! Sometimes God is a chatty Daddy! His face was lit up the entire time God was speaking to him. His coworker stood silently nearby just taking it all it in. We were not interrupted by anyone and the aisle remained empty.

“Thank you so much! I really really appreciate it. This means a lot to me. God bless you.” “Yes, I know it does. God just wanted you to know that He loves you, sees you, and thinks you are amazing.”What a super blessing it is to be used by God. That encounter made my day! I am continually humbled by how much He loves people through us if we let him. I am sure this young man will have an interesting story to tell his family tonight about a God who paid for his lunch and saw the best in him. Without any strings! Without any come to Jesus meeting!I guess I need to stop being surprised by these encounters. That is just how my Daddy God rolls……Merry Christmas Beloveds!



Encourage And Edify

Several years ago, I drove through my favorite place to get coffee. The young woman at the window greeted me “Hello, what do you think of my new shirt?” She kind of half twirled around so I could see it and then pointed to the company logo that was just beneath her left shoulder. ” Nice!” I guess I really didn’t know what to say, as to me, it was just another long sleeved t-shirt. She gave me a big smile ” Its a shift lead shirt! I am now a shift lead!” Oh! No wonder she was excited! She is someone who mans the window regularly and I had given her a word a month earlier that God saw her in management. That she led by a good example. She was mature, calm under pressure and would make a great leader. I smiled. “That’s great!

I paid for my coffee and then handed her a $20 bill and said Merry Christmas. “Oh I can’t take that!” “You can’t?” “Well I could, but I can’t. You don’t need to do that” “Please take it, I have an appointment over here and on my drive over God told me you would be working and to drive through and give you $20. He must want you to have it for some reason.” She thanked me and I drove off.

I thought I hope she doesn’t think I am strange. Or creepy! Stranger danger! Stranger danger! Ha! Then I thought who cares! I can be odd…..odd in the Lord! Ha! I just do what He tells me to do.

You may not remember when God gives you a WOK or prophecy for someone, but they will. Like Godfrey Birtill ‘s song “Just one touch from the King, changes everything!” It does!

This woman was later promoted to manager and eventually left for a better job at a larger establishment. Never under estimate what God can do through you if you let Him. That is why it is important to edify and encourage and not just read somebody’s mail. It might just change someone’s future.

Thanks Daddy God! That really blessed me. Who ever said life as a Christian was boring, must have never really had one.

God’s Best

“Hey, do you want this two lb. hand weight too? Sorry, but I only have one. Otherwise, we’ll toss it.” My sister Jackie casually asked me this weekend; as I was walking out her door with some leftover salad.

Yeehaw! “Yes! And I only need one.” My PT had told me to get one after surgery, and months later I had still failed to remember to buy one. Interestingly, I had just thought about getting one on Friday but didn’t want to dodge the holiday shoppers at Target. In my heart, I heard Big Sky Daddy laugh. Like …I got you, girl!

I cannot tell you how many items or solutions I have needed or wanted in the past month that I told NO ONE about that materialized. NO ONE.

Deuteronomy 28:2, ESV And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you if you obey the voice of the LORD your God.

Peeps! I speak God’s blessings to chase you down and surround you! Overwhelm you! Wherever you are. Day or night. Never late and always on time. Or before you even need them.

I used to believe I had a God who showed up at the last minute because He was trying to teach me to have faith. Nope!

All it did was make me anxious and panicky because I constantly expected God would only show up at the last minute.. and not one second before.

Kind of like ….why are my lost keys always found in the LAST place I’d ever look for them? Ha!

Read it again.

I get what I expect. I expect God’s best for me because He is My Father, He loves me and chose me before the beginning of time.

Read it again.

God’s best blessings, Beloveds.