Change

Tonight I stopped to get gas, at my favorite Holiday station, and decided to get a car wash too. I opened my purse to pay with my debit card and I saw two $1 bills. Great!

“Can I also get a Gopher 5 and a….” I suddenly paused. I wanted another $1 lottery ticket and I heard in my spirit “NO. Give it to the car wash attendant”. Nah, Its just a dollar and again, I started to say “And a “…..” but I heard, “give it to the attendant”. I got back in my car and I thought to myself, “Sure, this is the night I could win Hot Lotto and I should just go back in and buy the dang ticket. Just the devil trying to stop me, because you know if I won, God, I would help so many people. 🙂 I’ll just get my car washed tomorrow instead and I will dig up the cash for a tip then.”

Ha! How stupid. How many times have we bought into the lie that we better buy a ticket, because THIS could be the night. I sat in my car for several minutes debating with myself about it before I drove around the back of the building to get in line for the car wash. God spoke again…. “Give him your change too. Not the pennies. The big change”. Nah, I think change, for a tip, is demeaning. I will only give him the dollar bill. Not many people tip these guys anyway. “Give him your change.” Hard to deny the Father when you heard Him say it a second time.

I started to dig into the Bermuda Triangle, that I call my purse, and was surprised to find a large handful of change. Must have been at least $4-$5. Then i start digging through the cup holder for more change and I am tossing out the pennies. Can’t give the guy pennies, he will think I am a crazy old lady. I looked up and saw a young man with long blonde hair waving me forward. I had a hard time trying to fit my left tire into that little conveyer slot with one hand ,while holding onto a fistful of change and a wadded up dollar bill in the other. He looked bored and annoyed. I rolled down my window and shoved the change towards him as I blurted “Hi, I don’t want you to think I am weird or anything, but God told me to give you a bunch of change. You must need it for something”. The guy opened up both of his hands to receive it and flashed me a smile. “Thanks”. He then stuffed it into his back pocket, handed me a wet towel and said “Really. Thank you, every bit helps me.” He didn’t even look surprised or weirded out!

I am glad when I listen to God’s urging. Even if I have to wrestle with myself a little before I follow through. I had never seen this attendant before so maybe he was a new employee. Maybe he needed the money. Maybe he didn’t. Or maybe he just needed to hear that God was thinking about him and cared enough to have some strange woman gift him a handful of BIG change. I stopped trying to figure it out a long time ago. It just feels good to be a partner in His Kingdom.

Never An Inconvenience

As I drove home from the dentist, I felt an urgent need to remove the salt from my car. “Nah, it’s too cold; I’ll do it tomorrow. God whispered, ” Go to the Holiday station near your old house and give the car wash attendant a $5 tip.” I thought, “Really? 5 bucks? I’m retired now.” God laughs. Ever heard God laugh in your head? It’s delightful yet directive. Hard to argue with Big Sky Daddy.

As I changed course, I heard, “Tell him he is smarter than he thinks and that I love him.” Ok. I know God will have more to say when I open my mouth. I sure hope so; I always feel weird just saying, “God loves you!” Like it’s just a cliche. Or it is a phrase some Christians drop before they force fear salvation on someone. Like God loves you! Where do you think you will go when you die? Now let’s get you going up instead of down!” 🙂

I smiled as I pulled up to the gas pump until I reached for my debit card and the contents of my purse dumped out. Dumped out as in it landed in between my seats. Yikes! My pudgy hand couldn’t squeeze in there, and I will have to dig it out later. I chose a gas, added a car wash, and hoped that the receipt with the car wash code would print out when I was done. Nope. Now I am annoyed. It is cold and busy, and I now have to go into the store for the receipt. Suddenly I am not feeling much like Jesus. It’s easier to feel holy when we aren’t inconvenienced. God whispered, “This isn’t about you.”

I finally pulled into the car wash, and a really young man in dreads waved me in. “Oh, this should be interesting. Maybe he doesn’t even believe in God.” God whispered, ” Looks are deceiving.” ” I hand him the $5 and blurt. “I don’t want you to think I’m weird or anything but God told me on the way over here to tell you that you are smarter than you think and have more resources than you are aware of. He loves you and wants you to be happy. Don’t let those around you pressure you to follow a path you don’t want to.”

He looked shocked, and then his mouth dropped open. I suddenly felt some guilt. Like he thought he had to stand there and listen to me because I handed him some money. He put his hand up to give me a high 5. “Thank you so much! Do you know how much I needed to hear this today? I really needed to hear this. God uses the minds of men as His mouthpiece. I can’t believe God would send you over here just to tell me this! This is amazing.” I smiled. “Well. you can’t out cool God.” I then told him the city where I live and that God had sent me back to my old neighborhood to this gas station. “Wow, just for me. I will definitely remember the words God spoke through you.” “Yes, just for you.” He gave me another high five, and as my car started to be dragged by the conveyor, I shouted over the noise,” And He told me to hand you $5 and to go buy something to drink.” Again, the attendant’s mouth dropped open, and I smiled as this obviously meant something too.

We make this too difficult! People tell me all the time they want to do a ride-along with me when God gives me words for people. I’m afraid you will be bored. Better to ask God to help you speak out what you hear without fear. Even if it is inconvenient.

My most immense joy is to have Big Sky Daddy adventures and share them with others. Reminds me that He is for real, loves me, and someday I am going UP too!

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Wishing you God’s richest blessings, Beloveds.