Don’t Deliver Me

Can we just stop pressuring people to move forward quickly after a loss? We may not even realize we’re doing it and think we are helping. 

Evil spirit of grief? Someone said that to me awhile back and I thought you’re kidding me aren’t you? You want to deliver me of sadness? It’s your choice if you want to see a devil under every rock, but you aren’t going to push me so you can feel better.

If you have a hard time seeing someone’s grief pain because it makes you uncomfortable maybe you need to be the one to just move on.

I’ve cried a lot the past couple of days. Just when I felt it was getting easier, a wave of tears just hit me out of the blue. I really miss Dan. Miss him terribly.

I really need some peace right now. But maybe the only way to find peace is to cry right through the pain. To release the pain instead of hiding it away.

February will be a tough anniversary month for me and those who loved Dan. We committed to each other on 2/3, He died on 2/20 and the funeral was 2/27. I’d like to sleep thru February this year but life goes on. But so does the grief until I move through it.

Let people be with their grief process. You can’t do it for them nor speed it up. If you can’t handle it the kindest thing you can do is just get out of the way.

Thanks for your prayers, Beloveds.